I've decided that I'm no longer going to fool myself about my ability and all my future scrapping is for myself and my family, as it should be. I've applied for several design teams lately and only one actually bothered to acknowledge my application. It was a no which I expected but I appreciate that email.
So......I won't really be showing much of my scrapbook work in the near future. There might be a few things such as my remaining Punky Scraps work and my shop blog but my confidence is at a deep low to put much into the public spotlight. I am also aware of a number of people I know in real life who are constantly taking the piss about what I put on here so less scrapbook pages will add less fuel. I'm not stupid and I will do as I always have done once I realised what was going on and stand up tall and ignore it. If they are talking about me then they are leaving somebody else alone. As the old saying used to go 'todays news is tomorrows chip wrappers' except they no longer use newspapers to wrap chips in anymore lol.
As for my confidence - well I'll pick it back up soon and move on with life.